Looking for deep internal rest and peace?

There was a time when my days were marked by constant inner tension. I wrestled with anxiety for years, even drifting into depression. My thoughts never stopped. As a naturally creative woman, my mind was always full of ideas, possibilities, and plans. That creativity served me well in many ways, especially in my work, but I often felt trapped in a cycle of unrest.

There was no stillness on the inside.

I wanted peace—genuine, lasting peace. So I searched. I tried everything that promised to offer relief: mindfulness, yoga, breathwork, crystals, energy healing. For a time, these things felt helpful. I also went through seasons of counselling, which helped me become more self-aware and gain clarity around deeper patterns.

But even with all of it… the deeper peace I was seeking felt a bit fleeting. It always felt like I had to do more to feel better. And though I could mask the stress on the outside, I was still striving on the inside.

Then something unexpected happened.

At the end of 2020, I came across a woman I had looked up to for years in the personal development space. She publicly shared that she was leaving behind her New Age business and had come to know Jesus, really know Him. She spoke with such clarity, freedom, and rest. Something about her testimony stirred my heart.

For most of my life, I had kept Jesus at arm’s length. I associated Him with religion and rules, nothing I wanted to be a part of. But after "trying it all" and coming to the end of it… I was curious. And in that curiosity, God met me.

One night, alone in my room, I unexpectedly surrendered my life to Him. I wasn’t sure what to expect. I simply knew I was tired of carrying it all. What I didn’t know was that in that moment, I would be filled with the Holy Spirit, cleansed of unforgiveness and bitterness and receive the deep peace, inner rest, and renewed mind I had been searching for years.

But this time, it wasn’t just a feeling. It wasn’t just another fleeting experience. It was a beautiful exchange, my burdens for His rest.

My confusion for His clarity.

My striving for His stillness.

As I began to walk with God and read His Word for really, the first time, something became beautifully clear: in my own simple humanity and in my own strength and power, I could not have had true peace with God. I realized then and there that my sin, although reluctant, was the very thing separating me from truly receiving the peace I was so wanting. As it says here: "He made of no effect the law consisting of commands and expressed in regulations, so that he might create in himself one new man from the two, resulting in peace. He did this so that he might reconcile both to God in one body through the cross by which he put the hostility to death, " Ephesians 2:15-16. As Romans 5:1 states, “Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.”

If you’ve been searching for peace, whether through spiritual practices, personal growth, or even within your faith, but you still feel weary, I want to invite you to this: there is rest available to you, and the best part is that it does not depend on your effort and works.

Like love, peace is not something you earn.

It’s a gift. And as much as in the past it was such a cringeworthy name for me to say, I can now proudly say this peace is in Jesus.

He isn’t waiting for you to perfect or figure it all out. He’s simply inviting you to surrender and to trust that He can carry what you no longer have the strength to hold.

If you have yet to receive the free redemptive gift of salvation, or have drifted, this is for you:

“If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved… For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”
—Romans 10:9,13

You don’t have to carry it all anymore.

You don’t have to earn what’s already being freely offered as a gift, and you certainly do not need to pay thousands of dollars and hours of meditation in order to achieve what is freely available and already paid for, on the cross.